Not Who I Use To Be

I'm not who I used to be I'm not who I used to be There's something wrong with me Something wrong with me Something wrong with me I'm not, I don't feel a thing There's something wrong with me Something wrong with me Something wrong with me There's something wrong with me Listen close and understand why I am coming from I used to feel a certain way in prison And bound by chains Holding back my tears I see and look at how it used to be The devil had control of me The pain, the hurt, the suffering The cries lie wishing to die The silent thoughts of suicide Living in a state where only alcohol would ease my mind Drugs had me change my ways Ashamed of who I was, became You look at me, I smile But I did that just to hide the pain Confused so lost I used to be Would look but didn't notice me Locked up and put away for time Neglected by society Thought the change, thought I made it Wasn't enough, wasn't accepted Kept me there, pushed me back Had no choice, had to face it I stood there and I fought for me Cause everyone gave up on me I called to him, I bent my knees I prayed to him, I begged him please Heard me call, he ran to me He answered me, he made a way He poured his blood, washed my sins The sacrifice that changed my ways There's something wrong with me Something wrong with me Something wrong with me I'm not, I don't feel a thing There's something wrong with me There's something wrong with me I'm not the same and There's something really wrong with me Don't walk the same, don't feel the same The chains are gone, I'm feeling free Don't feel the pain from the demons That had tortured me, no longer feel afraid No longer losing sleep Not trapped inside a mind That's confused and filled with lies The vision's clear, no fogginess I'm looking through his eyes I see the trap, I see the snake I see the evil that it brings Holding back, see from afar I see how he's been calling me Not going back, I'm done with that Jesus came, I showed him that Did you forget what you did I can't forget, remember that The scars I have the hurt You did my dignity You hurt the kid Left me there to rot and die But I thank you cause I called to him Forgave me and accepted me He never once neglected me Show me love, kept to me Helped me cause he wanted me Refused to leave, would rather stay Held my hand all through the pain Told me just to look to him He is the light, he is the way I'm not who I used to be There's something wrong with me Something wrong with me Something wrong with me I'm not, I don't feel a thing There's something wrong with me Something wrong with me Something wrong with me There's something wrong with me