I Can't

Yeah, I've been through a lot of trauma I don't wanna be the one to put that on ya I get an obsession when it comes to commas But lately I've been counting sheep so I can be calmer Yeah, I can't be who you want me to be I can't sleep so I struggle to dream, yeah I can't seem to find any peace I can't think bout what I should've been, yeah I can't believe I'm still fighting these things I can't even break the curse around me I can't leave cause I said that I'd be Here forever but I need someone to save me You only stay so I don't go Looking at the memories like they're only photos I became an afterthought, I keep riding solo Telling me you need me, I don't need no one to blow smoke On me, I lost you, you lost me I need a bag but I wonder what the cost is Yeah, don't take it easy and be weighing on my conscience So I lay it all down When you need somebody, I stick around Even when I ain't helping myself I'm selfish but unselfish When it comes to you, be my weakness, yeah Want you all for me, I can see us Being something but you don't see me Like that, maybe I should fall back I said maybe I should fall back, yeah Maybe it's the way that I was raised Causing all these problems for today Driving wedges between you and me When I came, I said I'm here to stay Keep my word but it gets harder daily Biggest fear in life is be alone So lately I've been stressing when you ain't pick up the phone Entertaining someone else while I'm here waiting If you were to do that, I would let nobody else in Living while I'm dying If I said that I could live without you, I'd be lying If somebody were to touch you, swear that I'd get violent They say it's all about the timing so I put the time in But I know I need a rider Or somebody that could hold me down All I'm asking is you try to know me now I'm a stress case, I'm an asshole All my rest days, I don't really fucking have those All my worst days, you'll probably laugh more Self-deprecating humor, I'm building up my castle Of lies, but I can look you in the eyes Tell you that I love you, let you know I'll be fine Hey, I'll tell you I'm okay Let you know that I just need some time away But when I'm gone, I'll tell you I'm afraid Of knowing I'm replaceable, the time will fade Yeah, I'll tell you I'm okay Let you know that I just need some time away But when I'm gone, I'll tell you I'm afraid Of knowing I'm replaceable, the time will fade I can't be who you want me to be I can't sleep so I struggle to dream, yeah I can't seem to find any peace I can't think about what I should've been, yeah I can't believe I'm still fighting these things I can't even break the curse around me I can't leave, cause I said that I'd be Here forever, but I need someone to save me