Lately

Lately I just wanna be alone I don't even wanna get my phone Lately I been feeling left out Honestly I just think I'm a pest Making sound You don't understand how I feel You don't understand how this shit gets real When I say I'm chilling Man I'm in my feels Honestly I'm a pessimist Killing myself Then I say to the heck with it Cover up When I say I'm fine It's another bluff Then I tell myself I Gotta toughen up You just gotta know When enough's enough You a man You ain't meant to be sad You just putting on the mask Tell them life can be bad Ain't got time To be whining Having pity parties You haven't been discipline Filling up your body Drinking a bacardi Convinced that it'll make you better Life of the party Since you wanna be that way Drink until you hardly Can say a word You say it slurred You just following the herd Everybody wants the lavish life Don't nobody know the fight I think what I need Is to be alone Be in my zone Be away from my phone Monkey see monkey do You just following See another trend You gotta get on that shit And if you don't get big You just try again When it doesn't work You just cry and sit Tell yourself that life Just never seems to go your way Speak on other people See you in another place When you drinking Acting stupid Getting shit faced Till you can't leave Cause your keys you misplaced Lately I just wanna be alone I don't even wanna get my phone Lately I been feeling stressed out Honestly I just think I'm a pest Being loud Lately I don't know where to go I don't feel safe even when I'm home Only time I keep togethers on my own One day I'm seeing heaven but I just don't know If I'm just being honest hope I don't I don't feel like I deserve it Least I know Everyday I'm working Tryna be a better person Earn my way up to the gates And know that I was really worth it I ain't trying to be perfect Cause right now I'm feeling worthless Only thing that is for certain I’m a piece of work I ain't trying to be perfect If I get rejected at the gates At least I won't be the first I think I'm going overboard lately Everybody always call me crazy Lately I been feeling like a baby Lately I just wanna be alone I don't even wanna get my phone Lately I been feeling left out Honestly I just think I'm a pest Making sound You don't understand how I feel You don't understand how this shit gets real When I say I'm chilling Man I'm in my feels Honestly I'm a pessimist Killing myself