Sickness

I'm just killin' time, waiting for the sickness to take me away And I won't fight it, I need no more, I already died I'm at a point in my life where I wish I would go away People be sayin' they need me, but I think it's better off if I just didn't stay I know they'll miss me, but while I'm here, I'm seein' nothin' but backs lookin' different ways I know I'm a burden, but say it to me, yeah Why can't you look in my face Yeah, I know I'm a burden for people, I know they don't need me no more Yeah, I know they don't want me around, don't know why they ain't close the door Yeah, I'm thinkin' I'm gone, I should go away, they cause all this cold Yeah, I wish I could stop all the pain, but I can't be fightin' no more I'm just killin' time, waiting for the sickness to take me away And I won't fight it, I need no more, I already died I got a couple of people, I know that they really would miss me I'm tryna leave all these memories with everybody, so one day when I turn to history They remember all the good things I did, forget all my struggles, my life was a sin So behind the scenes, I'm takin' it in, givin' it back to the Lord, I repent I'm beggin' you, God, can you help me solve all these problems I have I know I've done wrong, but can you forgive me? I'm stuck in the past I know that you're here when I'm at my lowest, know you got my back But life get me hard, so if I'm an angel, can you take me back I'm just killin' time, waiting for the sickness to take me away And I won't fight it, I need no more, I already died Maybe my thoughts been deceivin', I know there's a light that I'm seepin So when I'm gone, just know that I'm in the ether Don't tell me it's sorrows, just tell me the meaning I'm not a perfect person, I made mistakes in the past They no longer eatin' me alive, so I might be happy Just know that I'm free of the mask I'm breakin' free of my chains, I know they ain't worth it no more I thought that I needed them to keep me grounded, now look how I'm doin I made mistakes in my life, almost like everyone else Even if I lose the fight, my faith will guide me to the clouds I'm just killin' time, waiting for the sickness to take me away And I won't fight it, I need no more, I already died