i hate to doubt but idk

(From the bottom of my heart I hate you) I can't seem to get no notoriety Maybe that's why she do not confide in me Been struggling lately through sobriety At least shawty think that my head is alright She'll never know what I go through at night She'll never know how I put up a fight I can't stand up no more My body's way too sore Please help me Please help me It's raining outside on the daily Every raindrop is a spike And it pains me And I'll never understand why I'm aching Please help me Please help me It's raining outside on the daily Every raindrop is a spike And it pains me And I'll never understand why I'm aching Nobody seems to listen Why does no one care? Nobody seems to listen Why does no one care? I pray, and I pray God tell me are you there? And I pray, and I pray God tell me are you there?