i see you but you arent there

I've started to hallucinate you In the corner of my room But this you wants me dead She won't get out my head I don't know what this feeling is (I hope you die) I wanna be left alone but I want you by me These voices inside me Tell me you're not coming back And as hard as I've been trying I can't get out my bed Every day I sit here rotting My stomachs knotting 'Cause these drugs don't sit well inside my body I don't know if this is a headache or heartache All I know is that I'm losing my mind Every second I'm getting closer to ending my life Anybody that ain't you promise they'll never suffice I know when I got with you that it was a sacrifice But I took it because nobody else was very nice I knew you loved him Don't know why I kept on trying Just got my feelings hurt And my blood on my shirt And I just wanna know between who us who hurt who the worst But I don't think that should be And argument between me and you Everything you did had some emotion behind it And I did what I did because you had me so mindless