nothing was reciprocated was it?

I had a dream You were still there In my life, playing these games that were just not fair Everything that you did had me ripping out my hair Enlighten me Did you not care? Everything that you did had me in despair If I didn't do enough tell me please my dear You don't know know how I was crying for you While you were crying for somebody else You don't know know how I was crying for you While you were crying for somebody else You had my head all sorts of fucked up Thinking I did everything all for nothing Did it mean anything when I said I loved you? You said you felt something But that just wasn't true And I can't find any way to hate you But I know for a fact that you hate me I've been praying to God to erase me 'Cause I know you'll find no trouble to replace me She's got mascara running down her face She's so scared she 'cause doesn't know this place She told me it'd be such a shame just to waste Such a perfect, unheard, unrehearsed, serenade I asked her Do you want to see a dead body? She answered She told me, she'd already seen me I know I'm so empty My body doesn't have a soul I don't look real I think I've lost all control Please tell me how to fix myself I ain't been doing too well I have been going through hell It's all been down since I fell It's all been down since I fell It's all been down since I fell For you Didn't think it'd hurt me to love you