Paralysed

I'm tired of swinging Up and down on this swing And not knowing if I'm going down Or what I'm tired of walking On this path and not knowing Where it'll lead us Where it'll lead me I'm tired of feeling This void under my feet Each time I'm taking a step I'm tired of discovering New horizons of confusion Each time I follow your way 'Cause each time I'm getting hurt Each time I'm getting burnt Every time I get too close to your core Sometimes I wonder whether This is a way to toughen up or it is just insane Sometimes I can't express How much I hate myself For letting me stay in this hell As you are at the mercy of the waves I reach out for you with both my hands All that I get is to drown with you And just as a weight tied to my ankle Is the awareness that It's my own hands That pulled me into the tide As I walk the line I just cannot decide A direction, a side I'm paralysed As I walk the line I just cannot decide A direction, a side I'm paralysed As I walk the line I just cannot decide A direction, a side I'm paralysed 'Cause for each time that I got hurt For each time that I got burnt I can't count the times you made me feel loved