Not Feelin' It

Halloween, tricking in fear Plague came strong, hug your loved ones ‘fore they disappear Keep it back, don’t come near Six fucking feet, are you deaf, can't hear Man a lot of shit has changed Losing track of all the days Got my mind up in a haze I can't even feel the pang When I drag my hand across the blade A sacrifice for all the pain I made God damn I've been on the lam Running from myself and in my fist about a gram Trust issues but I never second guess the fam No need to get lit bitch I already am I need a little bit of darkness Dim the lights a little more to get it started Feels a little like a bleeding heart hit I can't help it Sleeping with all of the snakes in the garden Always a scene at night with these hellish dreams Got something coming over me Like in a drug-induced sleep I gotta demon in me I need an exorcising I'm collapsing Nah, they were never gonna get me You were never gonna see me drop down to my knees All my thoughts buzzing in my head like bees It makes death feel like a breeze Now let me speak cause I’m choking On these words that are passed down just to keep peace But the peace now sleeps Evil lurks inside every single mind Finally break once somebody crosses the line Overthinking every word that's coming out of my mouth Knife to my tongue, yeah, I better cut that shit out Feel the devil breathing down my neck Too fucking hazy, can’t recollect Where I’ve been and the things I’ve evaded Barely on my feet body swayin’ Voices in my head and what they’re portraying Veins splayed open, cuts are pouring Might be until morning, if I make it that long Exchange the ink for the blood Let it pour till I’m down on the floor Finally become a little more Comfortable with the thought of death yeah But it seems I’m not welcome yet So f*ck, smoke one more cigarette To the filter, singe my fingertips Head empty still not feelin' it Not feelin' it