Diary

Why didn't I know How can I let it go I have prescription pills I don't take My doctor told me it'd take the pain away I wake up and I feel the same A little more numb than I was before But I'm still afraid I wrote in my diary A few times about you The pages bleed into each other Maybe I'll light it on fire and smoke a few Maybe the haze will get rid of you If you're a liar why didn't I know? If it won't ever be the same why can't I let it go? Why am I feeling so goddamn low? My grandpa couldn't stop drinking But I never considered myself an addict Til I'm waking up at 3 am Screaming at God Why can't I have him? I'm trying to get clean I'm trying to put you behind me When you want to use someone You won't be able to find me And I know that you tried me If you're a liar why didn't I know? If it won't ever be the same why can't I let it go? Why am I feeling so goddamn low? Why am I feeling? If you're a liar why didn't I know? If it won't ever be the same why can't I let it go? Why am I feeling so goddamn low?