Dependence Again

God I want to believe But I just can't find my faith The skin on my face Hasn't felt the burn Of saltwater tears In a while My whole life is fake And when it's my turn I dismiss my fears With a smile And I'm so broken Oh I'm so broken Can't pick myself up Please replenish my cup And show me dependence again God, I've tried so hard But I just can't make myself trust There's no reason for me To just get up and leave But my mind has gone batshit insane And I'd like to believe There's still some hope for me But that's ruled out by my judgment again And I'm so broken Oh I'm so broken Can't pick myself up Please replenish my cup And show me dependence again Is this how it feels To come to the end of myself I know that you're real But it feels like you're putting me through hell I've run forever Just to find my way I know you're out there Please come back and stay Oh I'm so broken Oh I'm so broken Can't pick myself up Please replenish my cup And show me dependence again I long so deeply to feel the safety and peace I long so deeply to feel the safety and peace I long so deeply to feel the safety and peace I long so deeply