alive

I'll be sitting in my room, thinking of the things I'd tell you If I had the courage, somewhere in my heart Since there's none I'll just fester slowly Wash away the pain as my skin bleeds But no, can't do that again Why am I alive with no purpose? These tears that I cry are meaningless For no one can validate my pain Send me sorrow straight to my brain I'm tired of being alive, alive While the clock is ticking, it's my mind that's been winning For then I'm one more second closer to bed Stare into the inky black void, figure out the pestering noise Oh wait that's just me wishing I was dead Why am I alive with no purpose? These tears that I cry are meaningless For no one can validate my pain Send me sorrow straight to my brain I'm tired of being alive, alive