love my body (don't)

I don't want to look this way But I do I want to like me cause I'm a fool I'm trying to get a grasp On my expectations And it takes a lot to see, The person I wish that I could be Would being a little smaller Make me truly happy? Cause I don't want to change I just want to be the same Maybe it's in my mind Maybe it's just bubble I need to pop, To stop my troubles When I find I look in the mirror It hurts to gaze, I'm plagued with fear Fear of gaining just a little bit more I know it really shouldn't matter Momma loves me, but I feel scattered Scattered from all the thoughts Shaking in my head Cause I don't want to change I just want to be the same Maybe it's in my mind Maybe it's just bubble I need to pop To stop my troubles