Deprived

Now go Don't want to see myself in the mirror Fog dissipating, it gets much more clearer Stuck in a state of shock when I go see her The only thing that fills my mind up is my fear I don't want to talk, everything's so foreign Can't seem to get myself up in the morning Don't want to check on my phone, I'm ignoring Every single person here just annoys me Paranoid, looking back and forth All out to get me, I think the worst Even if I tried, I can't make it work Even if I did, I'd make us hurt Tripping over sins I'm soon to commit Please just stop me, throw me in a ditch Still try to escape, acting like a bitch I'm sorry for everything that I did I'm sorry I'm so sorry Stuck in a sorry state None of my problems have gone away I can't confront 'em, I run away Doesn't matter to me anyway What if I wanted to make a change? Stay on a track and stop switching lanes Stop playing all of these shitty games Maybe only then I won't have to feel this pain Every night I relapse Cannot feel my hands Think about my past Putting out an act I can't act like me, use a mask to speak Burdens, I'm too weak. Problems just repeat Stare at my ceiling, don't know what to do Asking myself questions like who are you? Swear that I used to know, it's true (lies) The person in the mirror is not who I knew