Turn The Water Into Wine

All unspoken anger Grown lotta stronger Refuse to stay sober Cause then I'll remember It made me lose my temper Sabotage my feelings Compromised my mental Made me lose my senses Now I'm lost and all alone Drowned in my own thoughts For the sins I've atoned Coverin me in regrets Now im runnin out ways To leave it all behind No matter what they say I'm keeping this monster inside my head Slowly fade away Made me gone astray All thats left is name And it will last forever Cause I wish I cud Turn the water into wine Countless time And if I Get a chance to turn back time I'd do what ive been told No to corrupt my broken mind Now that everythings gone wrong Should've seen that one comin A boyhood that is false And a wasted love of livin Then came along words of affirmations Holding hands with expectations Made my Fallen self pride Transforms into A careless heart And I was Stranded, deluded Exiled, deseerted Think I deserve it All those Walls of denials And harmful chemicals Didn't chance a thing So pick up all thats left Tryna survive at my best Aint no time for soul - rest Tryna get out of this mess But what good does it do If I cant comprehend The sorrows the black blues So I guess this is the end Give it up now give it up now Give it up now give it up now Give it up now give it up now Give it up now give it up now Cause I wish I cud Turn the water into wine Countless time And if I Get a chance to turn back time I'd do what I've been told No to corrupt my broken mind Lord have mercy on me