Eyes Shut

My insecurities are the worst part of me But i carry on just to see the better side of me Because i know that this is who i want to be My opinion of myself changing right in front of me I tend to stay quiet When i have nothing nice to say I tend to feel nothing When you're not next to me For the first time in a long time i'm free I just shut my eyes when reality hurts me I shut my eyes I'm dead inside I feel you climb This world is my Safe guard from everyday life I need to find The reason why I find myself Everyday drowning in self pity This is all that i have All that i am To be a better man i do all that i can Never could sleep Never did weep Pick up the pieces i'm not weak Close my heart and i shut out the feelings Pick myself up and find a new meaning Why do i do this all for no reason I'm just used, bruised and beaten I tend to stay quiet When i have nothing nice to say I tend to feel nothing When you're not next to me For the first time in a long time i'm free I just shut my eyes when reality hurts me I shut my eyes Take time to reflect Build on whats next I know whats needed But i feel my demons pushing back at me