Slow Death

I feel relieved when your name flashes on my screen Still waiting for one of us to diagnose what that means But I'm not ready for that conversation I feel excited when you look me in my eyes The whole room slips away. Babe, it's just you and I But it's forbidden. It's not supposed to happen Unless, of course, you'd like to let it happen And I'm up in my bedroom And I wonder if you're ever gonna come around Praying, hoping, dreaming that I make you see me differently And laying in my bed Sooner or later, you know you'll have to let me down Am I a traitor or your savior? Either way, oh I know that it's a slow death I feel exhausted every time you bring him up Been with him three years, honey, ain't that enough But you're not ready for that conversation I feel psychotic 'cuz I know I'll never win No matter what I do, you're always choosing him I'll win the battle, but the war's already lost But, if death is in my cards, your love is worth the cost And I'm up in my bedroom And I wonder if you're ever gonna come around Praying, hoping, dreaming that I make you see me differently And laying in my bed Sooner or later, you know you'll have to let me down Am I a traitor or your savior? Either way, oh I know that it's a slow death Will I choke on the smoke or drown in the rain Will I ask you to leave him or live with the pain Will you set me on fire like the night when you kissed my lips When both of us knew we shouldn't do this And I'm up in my bedroom And I wonder if you're ever gonna come around Praying, hoping, dreaming that I make you see me differently And laying in my bed Sooner or later, you know you'll have to let me down Am I a traitor or your savior? Either way, oh I know that it's a slow death Will I choke on the smoke or drown in the rain Will I ask you to leave him or live with the pain It's a slow death