Twisted

I'm getting tired of feeling the way that I have been Always hear the same voice inside my head calling me a has been Wish I had a stronger choice but I know a vice will only ever stick to sin Typical shit and I'm tryna vent But it never works unless I grip the pen Now I see that I'm right here Unaware of where my life tear Say you love me but I don't care Cause that feeling something that we don't share Twisted view when I see a mirror Fluctuating every day I veer Advocating that I fall to fear But that's shit advice that I'll stall to hear Sick and tired of the rollercoaster Struggle by until the day is over Witness pain until I meet Jehova This a different league and I ain't talkin MOBA Depression make me idolize a holsta Push it down but it'll take me over Hard for anyone to know me closer And the solitude has never won me closure Maybe it's me who's inflicting the wound Impatient need a cure soon Fantasies of a pure tomb But this jealousy got a bad fume One face, I learn from the moon Mental season pushin monsoon But it's needed now if I wanna bloom Please, get me outta this Motherfucka I'm just tryna switch Bring me down to a place of bliss With a loving touch and a healing stitch Never much when I was a kid That's the root now for all the hunger shift Struggle more to embrace the mist And the more I fight then the more I drift Got a phone call from my brudda told me Miss you man now hit me back homie Just us needa bag homie Money itching tryna get it on me If I trip then I know you got me Drowning slow in this life tsunami And the reason why I'm still here beyond me Bitch I'm staying distant even with those in my vicinity Don't speak with that affinity Won't break and I ain't finicky It's been up and down with futility Catch myself in duplicity And this feeling really ain't new to me Frequent cycle with efficiency Why the f*ck can't I just break free I'm getting tired of feeling the way that I have been Always hear the same voice inside my head calling me a has been Wish I had a stronger choice but I know a vice will only ever stick to sin Typical shit and I'm tryna vent But it never works unless I grip the pen Now I see that I'm right here Unaware of where my life tear Say you love me but I don't care Cause that feeling something that we don't share Twisted view when I see a mirror Fluctuating every day I veer Advocating that I fall to fear But that's shit advice that I'll stall to hear Twisted, twisted, twisted, I get Lifted, lifted, lifted, so I'm