Lost Myself

Lost my heart, then I lost myself I'm screaming out, bitch I need some help I'm doing things that are bad for my health I'm scared as hell, bitch I scare myself I'm so empty, just a shell I'm so fragile, what the hell When I'm just about to move on, I get brought back by a smell Can't move on I'm stuck in the past Time moves quick yeah time moves fast I'll never get back what I thought I had That's my fault yeah that's my bad Tripping over everything, I'm always fucking sad She's moving on to better things, I guess I'm fucking glad I finally understand that I'm a piece of fucking trash I'm driving too fast, baby pray I don't crash Hate myself more than anything Wish I knew how to handle pain But I don't think, I just act That's how it all ended up like that Living my life in darkness Lately I been feeling kinda heartless Lately I been thinking that my crazy ex baby probably don't care That I feel just like a carcass Gotta move on regardless Know that I'm trying my hardest No matter what I go through, I'll always fucking show you That I'ma make it as a fucking artist Putting my thoughts into music Always gonna try to make a new hit Remember making songs with Newman Back when I felt like a human My dumb little mind Distorted the time And I can't realign With a path that's divine I'm crossing the line Where my heart intertwines With demons and angels, got chills down my spine Fell down the rabbit, I can't escape Consumed by the darkness, consumed by the hate Engulfed in the flames of my ongoing pain Ever since you left, I ain't been the same In the middle of the night, the devil started creeping Put his hands around my neck while I was still sleeping Swear to you that that was real, I know I wasn't dreaming Sometimes I feel like I'm controlled by a demon Wait, wait, focus Possessed when I wrote this Now the horned beast telling me I chose this Didn't chose anything, this is straight bogus