Anhedonia

It's been hours since the sunrise broke the shadow into pieces I still can't get up Now I see the dust on all the things we keep in this apartment It makes it hard to breathe I know what ought to make me happy But it don't this time I know what ought to break my heart But it don't this time There's nothing here, just a blank space in me There's nothing left but the shadows on the street What I seek at times like these is desert and absolute silence Vices on a screen There are words you gave me once inside a book for reassurance They seem so far from me I know they ought to make me happy But they don't this time I know they ought to break my heart But they don't this time Standing ten feet behind my eyes Sifting through my shirts and neckties There's nothing here, just a blank space in me There's nothing left but the shadows on the street I'm an imposter and you're the sweetest thing I've ever known One day you'll realize