Not Okay

I've been holding on for so long Now I can't feel a thing anymore When I they ask how I am I just say I'm fine Yea I know that's a lie Cause I'm dying inside When I can't keep the tears from my eyes When I don't know if I'll last the night I need you to be there by my side I need you to tell me it's alright If I'm not okay Cause I'm not okay This pain I made my bed in It won't let me sleep These thoughts they keep controlling me I can't even speak Is this all that there is Cause I'm getting lonely and the nights are so long Terrified I'm the only One who feels unworthy to feel any love When I can't keep the tears from my eyes When I don't know if I'll last the night I need you to be there by my side I need you to tell me it's alright If I'm not okay If my world comes crashing down Would you be my solid ground If I cry but don't make a sound Oh please don't leave me now When I can't keep the tears from my eyes When I don't know if I'll last the night I need you to be there by my side I need you to tell me it's alright If I'm not okay