all my friends are broken too

I miss life when I was not afraid Now I say I'm doing good when I am not okay I wish I never drank the poison now I got a taste Now there's way too many choices that I gotta make Now there's way too many vices that I gotta chase Its hard to hear advice when we are not the same Even if you hate the price someones gotta pay I promise that I'll listen when you tell me what I gotta change I'm tryna be a man To make my dad proud All the bad traits Probably getting passed down All the bad days Praying something pans out I hear them talking but I'm getting sick of that sound Why you so aggressive in the moment How you so depressed and never show it I never learn my lesson I'm a mess but you won't catch me at my lowest Its hard to clap my hands when I'm not happy and I know it But you can hold my hand I'm still not happy but I'm growing How you take a step when you're too scared to put your toe in I need to get some sleep cause keep reaping what I'm sowing I wanna be known by you Do you love me more than these I said you know I do I'm just feeling insecure because I know my fruit I know there's purpose in pain that I been going through All my friends are broken to I hope that we're the chosen few I know that no one noticed you Its hard for us to know the truth I know you really care But just be careful what you're open to I told you that I need you Lord Show me who you're bleeding for Im not playing games I don't like it when we're keeping score How can I drowning when I see the shore The way you love me make me love your people even more