AM Prayers

Rap from my mental health F*ck a private hell I'm waking up sad and not sleeping From pains and aches Dwelling on what I might had I'm loosing the reigns getting ready to break Getting ready to break Imma see my shrink Maybe this time admitted Moments I be on the brink That then means I've admitted Better get me another drink Nothing else I'm addicted First step I'm addicted Addict of pain or so it seems At it again between the seams Draw the water from tragic scenes Collectively what we've seen Amounts to a salty sea And I need vitamin C As in clarity and charity at home Especially alone you see Sweet is a minority and Pleasure is scarce Today is priority and tonight's is rest I've giving up on the quote on quote Fight battle of life shit don't go my way But every little thing is going to be alright It's going to be alright I press severe yet I am full of fear Like an adolescent Blind to my blessings Can I break down and say I ain't normal Or am I meant to keep it formal Cause is now my profession Perhaps this is one too many confessions What is norm if I may ask Le'hayim and stabbed me with the same glass Perfectly imperfect seems to be the calling My way of dealing with the winds of falling But you can't blow me down You can huff an puff I keep hold of my crown My soul is a warrior A militant flame An open book will cure you Let that be my fame Gather ye rose buds while ye may Got to be carpe diem For I'm a dead poet someday But until that morning when Redemption blows its horn and Temptation shuts it door slammed Imma be that man that splashes color In every direction he possibly can In every direction he possibly can I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up Now sing along I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up That's me for today no longer choked up Actually I can't say cause I just woke up One more time with all your souls I ain't giving up I ain't giving up I ain't giving up And that's my morning prayer