Ignore

This all began With one question Asking God to Please give me directions I wasn't sure That He would answer Yet He did, faster than I planned So I ignored His answers I once told Him He can have my life While my habits hadn't changed And I kept doing my life the way I saw fit It's was more HERE God Here is a fraction of my time Maybe less not more I got a busy life I got things to explore And the time came along The homies wanted to explore So I joined the commonality of interests 7 years later I'm still interested The beauty of mental exploration Outweighed my revelation that Jesus is King I took my life in my own hands And I would control it like a joy stick Thinkin' I can hit pause when My life gets thick But I don't think cuz I'm rich Meanwhile people around me are losing homes Husbands are cheating, little girls being mothers Children grow in up without fathers It's a disaster And yet We turn our heads away As kids get raped their way through childhood Minds shattered before the comprehension of what romantic love should be like Like the most amazing thing And knowing what goes on How can I turn my eye And act like life is gonna fly by Just like it does in mine It's so much easier for me to avoid Easier to turn my mind off and ignore Ignore the voice that's within me A powerful force making shifts That I don't see Until my heart is breakin' From the sin that has made me I'm stuck in the very middle Walking the tight rope of life Fallin' on one side today And on the other tomorrow What more do I say I was a sinner All my life I've been battled over Satan pulling me towards him Promising me treasures that only Last while I am here on this earth Since I'm not surrounded by death It seems that I'll be alive forever Oh life I'm in love with you You chase me to every corner of my mind A mind unlimited like the sands of time And as you chase me I've come to know that On a daily basis my mind is at war Asking myself What do I do with my time Should I chill or should I grind I don't want to live in a limbo God, I'm done ignoring you I need clarity and the only clarity I have is that I am loved through destiny Mixed together like chemistry Bonds gripping me into the most powerful method of therapy Allowing me to see That no matter what goes on I am loved so much