ENEMY

You wanna feel numb Cause it feels like you're going insane You wanna run from The hurt and pain I used to find a friend in me Now all I see is an enemy A bottomless mind is a playground for the dark who dwell An empty heart is tantamount to the center of hell Self-created fiery residence of a cell Stuck inside your head to die under your own spell I'm sick of your conviction and this negative depiction That I'm a helpless case beyond anybody's vision "Isaac they can't see you only if you show them fear Then they'll shun you I'm the only one left to support you here" Man shut I'm done listening You told me life would be glistening Just stay by myself, no missing them But you lied to my face so I'm finishing Done with you, ain't no telling where I might go Stepping on the gas, and I'm turning up the nitro Running so fast and I'm trying to find my light so Get your shoes off of my carpet you're in my home Said you'd show me heaven What you showed me was eleven Watching both of my friends dead and you just sat there laughing so Never again, I won't let anyone in Writing til late in am Talking bout all of my sin I looked to you with a grin and said You wanna feel numb Cause it feels like you're going insane You wanna run from The hurt and pain I used to find a friend in me Now all I see is an enemy Don't know what happened to us as kids got along fine Getting bullied said stand up and fight I was the type Whenever we got scared I said we should run and hide You said you'd give me happiness should've KNOWN THAT YOU LIED Cause of you a girl hurt me, I never did ever feel worthy Straight down to death is where I was curving Finally I see your plans unfurling Keep your mouth shut don't tell me I'm blessed Right now I just wanna feel less I'm sick of you in my head you're obsessed With turning the good parts of life to a mess Don't tell me I'm wrong or argue your case This my head not yours, so you know your place Don't look in the mirror I'm sick of your face Don't wanna talk to you so just go away Everything I'd say you'd throw away Inside my head you wanted to stay Never to fix it only to play With the memories til I went insane Talking, quit talking I don't wanna hear it I see a smile, but don't wanna go near it My heart doesn't fit in my chest so I wear it Don't know what happy is so guess I should fear it I'm sick of my life being based on appearances I want music to be made with sincerity Every lyric I write it down carefully Showing everyone myself with transparency Used to be happy now you're a villain You see my old self and you tell me to kill him I know you're evil cause you're me I can feel it But I've had enough of you I'm at my limit So I pray to whatever's above me That I can find someone who actually loves me Someone gentle who don't care bout the money And not like you someone who would never cut me I'm told there is much more to life than this But pain is all you've given me I don't know more than this I was broken and shook My eyes were an open book You said you'd take the hurt away, but my soul's what you took So why did it have to be me? Why did it take so long to see That I thought you were my friend, but now you're an enemy I guess I've always known the truth But back then I had no one to run to But I got the power to cut loose So this is it I'm saying F*CK YOU You wanna feel numb Cause it feels like you're going insane You wanna run from The hurt and pain I used to find a friend in me Now all I see is an enemy