Forgive me

Forgive me for the times that I fall apart Forgive me for spending my life in the dark Forgive me for the times when I know I hurt your heart Forgive me when I cut off your extended helping arm Forgive me for always being so stubborn I know That I need to let others in so we all can go To the top straight up I'd shoot my shot And I'd take all of you with me if my mental state wasn't so low And forgive me for always being too direct Forgive me for not learning and not showing you respect Forgive me for always being down or deep in a wreck Forgive me when I tell you that I want to slit my neck But sometimes I really mean it I've been stuck down in the deep end And I can't swim so I'm sinking The depression only deepens Want to leave it, and I'm fiending for release I'm always dreaming that someday I'll find my peace But until then I'll be here screaming Forgive me for all the things I've done to you Forgive me for the times when I don't know what to do Forgive me when I'm too much for you Forgive me when I feel like I have none to lose Forgive me when I push you away, and then ask you to stay Forgive me when I run away and then come to you. Forgive me for losing passion or what I want to do Forgive me for all the life that I keep pushing aside that I want with you. I'm sorry I'm so sorry Forgive me for when I break Only so much I can take When I'm lost can't find my way So much that I have to say I'll tell you that I'm okay Really I'm so far away So forgive me for the way That I lie to you to save Myself and you as well I can't drag you through the hell That I created myself I tell all you not to dwell I can't follow advice well Not my own and so forgive me for the lies and hypocrisy that I have shown And forgive me for not always being my best Forgive me for the things I never get off of my chest Forgive me for dealing with only one thing not the rest Forgive me when I can't think straight or I'm depressed Forgive me for not having the motivation for music Sometimes I feel like I'm not worth it enough to do it But I've been through it The gauntlet someone threw it Right at my face but I try to erase my mistakes and do this But they always return into my life and give me pain So forgive me the words that I might say in vain Forgive me for the top not being my only place to aim Forgive me for all the places that I put the blame Forgive me for never trying to wash away the stain Forgive me for never healing the scars on my brain Forgive me for the times when I act like I'll go insane Forgive me for never putting meaning into my name Forgive me Please forgive me