INSOMNIAC

When you get out of bed I've been watching the sun rise You're feeling replenished, I've been here like four times I'm tired I ain't get no sleep last night Or the day before, or the day before that, or the day before that Yeah the pattern repeats The nightmares make sure I can't stay asleep They let me know that all the people in my life will leave You couldn't last one minute if you were in my dreams Then you'd be dead and I'm the one that always has to see it Wake up, I'm thirsty so I take a drink and Lay back down I feel some relief then I Close my eyes and I wake up screaming I won't close these eyes again, I can't risk it I sit and I sulk in bed, I'm wishing To go back where my life began, no different So I sit up questioning, why is it that I'm an insomniac, yeah I take the meds But my mind just spins every time that I'm in bed I'm sick of all this, wish I was dead so I could get sleep without these thoughts in my head I'm an insomniac, yeah I take the meds But my mind just spins every time that I'm in bed I'm sick of all this, wish I was dead so I could get sleep without these thoughts in my head Hit rock bottom more than I've written a verse Hope for the best, but always expect the worst This is where I go whenever I'm feeling the hurt Cause it'll only get better if I put in the work I wanna be great, I wanna be strong I don't wanna break, I wanna move on I wanna be safe, I don't wanna fall The name I create, I want to live on But as of late, it seems like I risk it all Do you know what it's like to look at cloudy gray? Think about every mistake that you ever made? Watch your whole life slowly disintegrate? And then lie to yourself throughout the day? Every night I can see his face clearer I think about the day I get taken by the reaper Never again will I look into the mirror I'd see the eyes of the one that I'm in fear of And he'd look at me with a sorrowful glance His eyes drained of life from this toxic dance Regrets every time that he took the chance To trust someone else by his own demands They told him his heart was precious and they kept it Then they stepped all over it and left it He thinks of this every time he goes to bed and He is me so.. Well I guess I should accept that I'm an insomniac, yeah I take the meds But my mind just spins every time that I'm in bed I'm sick of all this, wish I was dead so I could get sleep without these thoughts in my head I'm an insomniac, yeah I take the meds But my mind just spins every time that I'm in bed I'm sick of all this, wish I was dead so I could get sleep without these thoughts in my head