PESSIMISTIC

Don't you ever just wish you were someone else? Or at the very least not yourself? One full day that you could transform And be free of the burden from the hand you're dealt? Yeah I wish too, that the sky was actually blue or For my soul to die so I could become anew that I could break out of my own point of view so I could sift through the lies and find the truth But never happens I'm not lucky enough Heart says smile, Head says I wanna be numb On the inside feel like I'm ugly and dumb Had some people around me that loved me for fun I said had used the word in the past tense Cause right now it doesn't feel like I have friends Listen back to the words that they have said Right now it doesn't feel like its ever gonna end but Maybe I'm Pessimistic (You're nothing but a blackened soul I can see inside) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (Why do we choose to live if we were born to die?) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (It's a waste of energy if you cry) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (It's non-existent, I can't see a brighter side) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (You're nothing but a blackened soul I can see inside) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (Why do we choose to live if we were born to die?) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (It's a waste of energy if you cry) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (It's non-existent, I can't see a brighter side) Where was the "we" when you said "us"? Easy for you to lie, harder to trust I wanted love, but we got lost in the lust I was never there I know it sucked Still, you treated me terribly I can't believe I was gonna ask you to marry me I thought you were a rarity You were just lonely and used me cause you wanted charity How you expect me to take that? Things you said that I wish you would take back Broken down, can't believe you would say that The loneliness, I'm just here to replace that All the times you told me to come home knowing You were gonna treat me like nothing Now I'm hoping That one day you sit by yourself choking As the well in your throat fills with words you have spoken I was too attached I get it I controlled you with it I never could accept that you had things you had to deal with Never could admit it But yeah I was a critic Of all the things you would do And all those that you didn't Taught me a lot yeah, but this ain't class I finished last from being nice so kiss my ass It's in the past, they say the cup is filled to half So this shall pass, but there ain't nothing in the glass so Maybe I'm Pessimistic (You're nothing but a blackened soul I can see inside) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (Why do we choose to live if we were born to die?) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (It's a waste of energy if you cry) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (It's non-existent, I can't see a brighter side) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (You're nothing but a blackened soul I can see inside) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (Why do we choose to live if we were born to die?) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (It's a waste of energy if you cry) Maybe I'm Pessimistic (It's non-existent, I can't see a brighter side)