Next to You

In my bed with my thoughts Layin thinking Where you at? What you doing? are you drinking? And if you are when you drink do you think of me? Cause you once where my warmth on a cold night Used to dance and hold hands under star light But now I see what we had wasn't meant to be I got to be careful Cause I got no self control Keep on checking my cell phone Just hoping I've missed a call leaves me sad What we could have been And While I regret that I let you in It's futile to deny what I'm holding in As it's quarter to five and im six drinks in Darling I No I Don't wish that I was by your side Not that what we had wasnt Beautiful Just know I'll think about you always I'll think about you always buts better if I go Still alive but my heart isnt beating Close my eyes try to steady my breathing Cause though it's all for the best I still feel the pain And im Wondering how you are right now Is life good since you let me down Yeah it hurt like hell but I'll be ok I got to be careful Cause I got no self control Keep on checking my cell phone Just hoping I've missed a call leaves me sad What we could have been And While I regret that I let you in It's futile to deny what I'm holding in As it's quarter to five and im six drinks in Darling I No I Don't wish that I was by your side Not that what we had wasnt Beautiful Just know I'll think about you always I'll think about you always buts better if I go It's better if I go Despite the steps I've taken What's best I still don't know Is it better if I go? Darling I No I Don't wish that I was by your side Not that what we had wasnt Beautiful Just know I'll think about you always I'll think about you always buts better if I go