Off The Deep End

Late night I lost count of all my drinks All these expectations I've been trying to meet So much pressure growing up I didn't need Wondering if this is where I'm supposed to be Another weekend over thinking All these critics want to throw me off the deep end I could really care less who I'm pleasing I just want to chase dreams l believed in But I don't want to walk around living wasted I just want to wake up say I made it Everyday grow hard to keep my patience All I got is myself when the day ends If you wonder what I did to ease the pain I bought Bacardi and I mixed with lemonade I'm optimistic that tomorrow I'm going to change Tell the critics get the f*ck up out my face Counseling to open up more, trying but I can't My ex said that I work too hard, but she don't understand I grew up with no father figure, forced to be a man No time for explanations I've accepted who I am So watch me hold it all in, won't notice till it builds up Pouring alcohol until it's flooded in my system Trouble with these rules Man I don't need no therapist This instrumentals only one that I've been talking to Late night I lost count of all my drinks All these expectations I've been trying to meet So much pressure growing up I didn't need Wondering if this is where I'm supposed to be Another weekend over thinking All these critics want to throw me off the deep end I could really care less who I'm pleasing I just want to chase dreams l believed in But I don't want to walk around living wasted I just want to wake up say I made it Everyday grow hard to keep my patience All I got is myself when the day ends If you wonder what I did to ease the pain Picked up the bottle and I poured it down the drain All I needed was a little bit of faith Critics talking but this time I walk unfazed I don't want to drink no more, I can feel me fading slow Take advantage of me when my mental state is vulnerable I can't get too comfortable, sharing feeling's personal Downed too many just one more's This damage ain't reversible Pain is temporary, but my legacy's forever Spilling all my thoughts on songs is how I handle pressure Took a couple months to sober up I'm feeling good Watch me accomplish everything I dreamed they said I never would Late night I lost count of all my drinks All these expectations I've been trying to meet So much pressure growing up I didn't need Wondering if this is where I'm supposed to be Another weekend over thinking All these critics want to throw me off the deep end I could really care less who I'm pleasing I just want to chase dreams l believed in But I don't want to walk around living wasted I just want to wake up say I made it Everyday grow hard to keep my patience All I got is myself when the day ends If you wonder what I did to ease the pain I take a look at all the progress that I've made Silenced doubters, I deserve to celebrate Won't go there, can't go there no no