the cheshire cat

Sympathetic gestures, wish I never got them Third girl in 6 months telling her we're locked in But giving that loyalty, I was never content Old flame reminding me I lack substance Eyes never lie I'm avoiding the contact Old values that I don't keep intact It seems like everyone that once had pride in me are switching their pride with upset I brush it off like courtesy But secretly I'm wondering how I could regain their trust in me Could I go back in time and do some things differently But highkey, seems my absence brought them peace Gotta turn a new page, focus on planting seeds Tend to my new garden, still hung up on old leaves I got everything i need to proceed I'm still trying new locks with old keys Honestly I'm sick of receiving epiphanies I never act on them just watch them pass me Had it sweet like honey should've crowned you queen bee It's burning my soul leaving marks like third degree There's a one trick pony i keep coming back to And maybe i find comfort in nothing new But I know deep down it's not what I'm tryna do Real simple, got a few choices i could pick and choose Cutting back on what I give like estimations Could never be a time you question my dedication Knew I opened doors brought the light like a revelation But we both might benefit from a separation No proper courtesy you left without goodbye to me Then you wanna spin back for closure in a couple weeks And I'm supposed to give it on a technicality We tried to keep it pure, couldn't keep that same pedigree Lost the last three can we go another round? Bet against the house, win big, but I'm down Materials quick turn my frown upside down