Closing Doors

I wish I figured out by now That what goes up must come back down 'Cause gravity Has a hold on me And it drags me to the ground In looking for a breath of air I'm wondering can I stay there But what pulls me up Just runs out of luck And I fall back unprepared Did I say too much? I always open up I'm out of touch with who I was Cause I'm building castles, but they're made of sand And when the waves come, no, it's never as planned Do I just give up? Do I start again? I try and find solid ground, looking for land But it's hard to do, I don't know who I am anymore When all of my closing doors I wish it wasn't all my fault When you're the one I have to call As a consequence Of my ignorance Causes me to drop the ball And I don't mean to cause you pain But somehow I do all the same I could tell you why If I really tried I could pass on who's to blame What's the point in that? It all just circles back to where I'm at Again Cause I'm building castles, but they're made of sand And when the waves come, no, it's never as planned Do I just give up? Do I start again? I try and find solid ground, looking for land But it's hard to do, I don't know who I am anymore When all of my closing doors And I try and seek peace but the war inside me's saying I should keep fighting And I know what I need but it feels out of reach how do I keep on trying? With my faith running thin I know I will give in but in which direction? Do I fight for control? Will I just let it go? This is my confession Cause I'm building castles, but they're made of sand And when the waves come, no, it's never as planned Do I just give up?