Deep End

I'm sick and tired Tried to stick to indecision Like I stay retired From a sport I'm always missin' Man I'm catching fire Burning up, riding a flame This is my one desire Stay away from all the pain That comes with getting higher Placing bets I shouldn't make Cause sometimes love's a liar You may laugh at the cliche But I'm so sick and tired So I treat it like a game I guess I might admire Different prizes so I play it you know I've been tryna hold to what's left of my good conscience Devil on my shoulder told me go ahead and watch this I maintain control but I'm not making any progress Like I just might give to his instructions someone stop this I've been, chillin in the deep end Not a rhyme or reason for anything My mind always buffering buffering I've tried, laying in the daylight But somehow when the low tide is rising up I don't really care enough to leave And water's crashing over me God made a man on a mission But I've been losing my vision My expectations are missin' Won't fit the box that I give Him now So I play the victim now Without my dreams and ambition Without the storybook ending I take a second to listen To this whole story you're telling now My demons are getting loud I've been, chillin in the deep end Not a rhyme or reason for anything My mind always buffering buffering I've tried, laying in the daylight But somehow when the low tide is rising up I don't really care enough to leave And water's crashing over me I don't want to fall asleep quite yet Cause I don't like what I see when I'm in my head Why don't I stick around I just may stay instead I'm running till I pass out wake up in my bed Just to do it all again