Granted

Too many times I find myself in disgratification Yea my anxiety attacks almost happening daily I'm still healing from the wounds from my battles with Satan Said you in love what am I doin wit that information I been alone but my heart it just aint for the taking It's no discredit to you baby that ass is amazing But I'm in a rush to get this cash and you asking for patience You only pushing me away when you acting abrasive What you said already stuck no retracting the statement Slapped in the face with All Kind of drama All kinds of problems Bruh My timing is mean Why you decided to be outside when it's 90° Pushing my buttons try not to bring out that side of me please I gotta lot goin on I tried using you as shade so I could weather the storm Ever since I was born I had it rough but I ain't never put no slit in my arm They take my Feelings for weakness so it's risky to show 'em I deal with silent pain I gotta hide the rage My broken spirit will never show you a sign of pain It's plenty reasons I'm introverted not shy but I'm shame I got a lot on my brain And I don't wanna put that pressure on you Baby girl Times I took for granted Every seed I planted Flowers I'm still waiting on My brain won't leave me lone Won't let my weakness show But it'd sure be nice They said when life gives you lemons You should make lemonade But then you make it and it's pungent and too sour to taste My mind racing I kinda need brakes My confidence breaks So easy Every time that it takes A bit of trauma reminds me how much I got on my plate I'm tryna be great But every time I get a lil traction I end up missing the exit and falling right into traffic I'm talking bumper to bumper That lane where everybody stagnant I wanna girl that thinks I'm beautiful despite of my baggage She build me up and not around me Keep me up on the totem Took the tears make for her used em as ink for this poem I've been uncomfortable and lonely, but don't that mean that I'm growing Stuck in cycle where no matter what happens I gotta make it all right I swear it's crazy it's like I don't even know how it happens but I hate that we fight Sleep in the morning but awake every night I prolly need some rest Foreal