i've been running for all of my life

I pour out my heart And show her my scars And she do the same I look to the stars And know that im far But i need my space Where do i start When all of my flaws Keep me from change I'll try to have faith But it's hard to pray I'm stuck in my ways But she show me what it's like to be in touch When my soul is going under, be my crutch Can you teach me how to swim, just hold me up Cause i been drowning for some time, im going numb Told you im not everything you see Knew it would be harder when you leave Guess i still got codependency Turns out i need more than cigarettes and weed So im smoking again, im selfish again I'm running from you, cuz i run from myself Prideful again so i dont need no help Took all your feelings, put them on the shelf Everyone round me just care about wealth While im stuck on problems i keep to myself So dont start judging like he needs some help Cause the last time i put out my hand i still fell And i know that you care for me, but i dont And i want you to leave, but you wont So sit here with me while i cope With the loss of my dreams and my hopes I pour out my heart And show her my scars And she do the same I look to the stars And know that im far But i need my space Where do i start When all of my flaws Keep me from change I'll try to have faith But it's hard to pray I'm stuck in my ways But she show me what it's like to be in touch When my soul is going under, be my crutch Can you teach me how to swim, just hold me up Cause i been drowning for some time, im going numb Give my life for the things i dont know Give up hope and i'll let myself go Sacrifice for the ones that i love Always scared but i know that i must Leave my shade and step into the light But the darkness stays right by my side I've been running for all of my life From the pain that i keep here inside I've been running for all of my life I've been running for all of my life I've been running for all of my life