am i winning?

Am I winning? Giving my all, try not to fall, it's a lot How's this different Than how you were, I'm kinda worried it's not Never ending, I did it all, giant or small, not enough It's beginning to look a lot like I would not ever Be the things that you want me to be All I ever wanted to hear (Are you proud of me?) God, I wish you wanted me here. Aren't you proud of me? Am I winning, it's getting hard, I'm kinda far from the goal Don't you see that I really try to turn out like all the Things I know you wanted me to be All I ever wanted to hear (Are you proud of me?) God, I wish you wanted me here. Please be proud of me.