Comfortable in Chaos

Am I comfortable in chaos since I seek it when I'm calm? Am I confident when I'm insecure, Since I always seem to call the ones who doesn't want me back At least I've been there before I know that way I've crawled that road It's hurts, but at least I know that for sure I- I- I- I don't know if you want me Bet I- I- I'm too comfortable in chaos I don't know if you want me Bet I'm too comfortable (I'm too comfortable in chaos I'm too comfortably comfortable) Why do I self destruct when I'm healing? Was it meant to be like this? Miss being little still cuz' I didn't understand That my own thoughts would try and kill me I'm still afraid I guess I- I just pretend that I'm older I'm 21, but I wanna feel like 5 again Maybe 22 will be easier 23 will look good on me 47, am I still awake? 52, do I feel like me again? When will I settle in myself? God, I'm too distracted for my own best When will I settle in myself? When will I settle in myself? I- I- I- I don't know if you want me Bet I- I- I'm too comfortable in chaos I don't know if you want me Bet I'm too comfortable (I'm too comfortable in chaos I'm too comfortably comfortable)