Studio Confessions

Up in the studio cause that's just where I vent at They telling me to pray about my problems I done did that I got some memories I wish that I could give back Cause lately they been haunting me I could never forget that I remember running through the 'wood when I was growing up Dreams I had of blowing up Gang signs throwing up Stepping off the school bus i was just a youngin Them niggas was really thugging so to them it ain't mean nothing Boy I had the cleanest falcon jersey red Mike Vick I ain't know that wearing jerseys would get me into some shit Cause them niggas pulled up on me asked me what set I was with Cause the V stood for very and the I was for important and the C stood for Crip The K meant killer I ain't have nothing to say I was shook I remember I remember walking in to Whole Foods with my parents They had a book bag I ain't really understand it I got a lil older then I understood why Summertime 02 I remember drive-by's Diving in a random house my nigga I was hysterical I ran into a shooter I was staring down the barrel By the grace of God homie didn't pull the trigger That's what let me know that i was destined to be bigger Yeah Rest In Peace Yonnie Tell them haters that I'm coming I ain't ever stopping confessions Rest in peace Keriona man She been on my mind heavy lately But I think that's just her angel telling me everything's alright Look imagine moving to a city with your lady tryna get your life in order But you can't really support her Now her family tryna warn her that you can't really afford her On top of that they laughed when you said you was a performer Barely making money ain't no money in your savings So your lady get to stressing but she pregnant with your baby So you happier than ever at the same time it's scary She about to be your Mrs. but then she miscarry Damn that shit is weighing on you This ain't part of the plan They told you since you was a child that you would be the man But now you falling short of everything that they predicted Thinking life ain't really worth it f*ck it I'ma end it But this ain't meant for no pity trust me I been through plenty It ain't too many that get me so I just keep it in me I often wonder if I would be living lavish If I posted on the block with the white could have been magic Been through shit with homies it's stuck in my head We was held at gunpoint we should've been dead damn What you know bout being heat less in the winter In the mountains when its snowing in the middle of December And your lady get to shaking like a blender homie I remember How could I forget I still be struggling sometimes I'm bitter All this pain is for the best that's just what I'm hoping Cause they say for your heart to open it gotta be broken Man for a black man in America it's tough to be both strong and vulnerable I consider this track a step in the right direction man I don't know what the future holds but God is telling me that it's something big So just keep rocking with me man