Big Shot

I didn't want to be anything unless it was beautiful and brilliant hardly believed Like grasshoppers or spiders and I am not the princess I'd like to be Should I forget myself before the swingers leave Know it would be a relief to some extent to be compelled to retrieve Each memory and fiber that might be imbued with fondness when absent or fleeing When I stood up to go You were already dreaming of Mexico When I stood up to go You were already dreaming of Mexico When I stood up to go You were already dreaming of Mexico I want to be a sportsman Own a sports car Fit for home movies I want to be a big shot The envy of all the loves I've lost And to buy my parents groceries Could've been a punchline or a grifter There's still time I suppose A headline if those bullets clipped me or my sister Maybe it's just that I don't want to die alone