Turmoil

As we make another attempt in these crowded halls, it's all for our own sake We know that we'll stumble and fall, push towards recovery Seldom hear reassuring words of integrity I gave up on that noise a long time ago I hear every little tick of my internal clock Just counting down the seconds till I feel on top For an hour or two, wish for a little more, maybe I've forgotten what I'm doing this for So I can recapture the days When I still had a chance at a name for myself by some circumstance Delusions of grandeur have me riding high for the example I'll set, I should just hide The darkest corner that I dwell, good luck and may I bid farewell. Can not help but bring up my youth, motivation perhaps I can use. My temperature is rising high, ready close curtain and let it ride You all wait patiently for a sign, but progress is far and Why can't you see what's come of me? It's just not worth the effort 'cause all this turmoil is something I won't set aside Wanting to turn things around Just have no idea of how Let us hope for the best As they test my resolve, the coroner may call And bring the bad news, nothing left to lose Got a lot to learn, or let it all burn, we were better back then, let's just pretend What I said was real, about this deal, to come out clean, and try to redeem The hollow shell I am, I know I can, and maybe I could stay, on your wedding day My temperature is rising high, ready close curtain and let it ride You all wait patiently for a sign, but progress is far and Why can't you see what's come of me It's just not worth the effort cause all this turmoil is something I won't set aside Won't set aside