A message to a happier me

Taking these drugs I don't need love I just need her Say that too much Taking these drugs I don't need love I just need her Say that too much You're not real Life is fake Up all night Wide awake Life stands still Feelings fade I feel lost M.I.A I am laying In my grave Lately I been So afraid Popping some pills Now I won't chill Swerving through traffic I'm behind the wheel Drugs to my brain It numb the pain I'm feeling lost yea it drive me insane Now I'm not mad I am just sad I get to thinking I miss what I had Please do your worst Treat me like dirt Heart is so broken like damn that shit hurt She tells lies and it hurts She's not mine but I'm hers She tells lies and it hurts She's not mine but I'm hers You're not real Life is fake Up all night Wide awake Life stands still Feelings fade I feel lost M.I.A I am laying In my grave Lately I been So afraid