Wasn't You

I saw you standing front row Halfway through the show I blinked and I couldn't believe what I was shown It had me fucked up Ripped me outta my zone Brain bouncing around my skull all the way home If I'da known you'd visit I would've roamed Around til I found you at the bar all alone I would've asked why and probably cried I would say that I'm doing fine but that's a lie I know it wouldn't be right but that's alright Cuz it'd be my little piece of heaven in this spiritual divide I fight with riptides that bring me under It's in that moment of solace that I see wonder And it's the second that follows that screams the thunder Telling me that daydreams don't make me younger So did I really see you It's all tangled All of this because I saw the wings of an angel I don't know what I saw but I'd like to think It was you showing up just to check on me I don't think it was you, but just a blip A second in time in my mind that you fit I know it wasn't you but I'd like to believe I know it wasn't you but I'd like to believe I know it wasn't you but I'd like to believe It was you showing up just to check on me I see you time to time now Mostly in my dreams, sometimes in your first grandchild Every time I look into his eyes and he smiles I picture you next to me saying you're proud I'll never forget your final words to me I love you buddy was all you could say to me It wasn't enough for me and I'm sorry That I left you in that room, it's still hard for me I feel your essence in every single second I feel your presence in every moment mentioned Whenever I'm overwhelmed enveloped in tension Teeth clenchin' I sense the teachings of your lessons You always taught us what was best in life I only see it now when I can't text you, right I still listen to your voicemail greeting so I don't go through the heartache of your voice leaving me I don't know what I saw but I'd like to think It was you showing up just to check on me I don't think it was you, but just a blip A second in time in my mind that you fit I know it wasn't you but I'd like to believe I know it wasn't you but I'd like to believe I know it wasn't you but I'd like to believe It was you showing up just to check on me