DEATH WISH

I'm underwater, watching the sun reflect Off the surface, now it's my time to rest Feeling nervous, I cannot find a breath I'm underwater, watching the sun reflect Off the surface, now it's my time to rest Feeling nervous, I cannot find a breath Was it worth it, how much do I have left Closing the curtains, my bones burst from depth Chosen to burden from existential dread Frozen from burning all the fuel left in my head Serotonin has to be earned she said I'm breathless Death wish I'm breathless Death wish I'm breathless Death wish I'm breathless and I have a death wish Do not try to contact Or anything beyond that I've been on a mission my entire life to come back To the roots where seeds were spread Where if left unwatered the leaves would shed But despite the ignorance the memories bled Back onto the precipice from whence they fled Now I'm drawing my conclusion I'm in awe of the illusion You can be privy to intuition and still not be ready with what comes to fruition There's an understanding you come to when the young you doesn't recognize the done you Youthful spirit Truth you'll fear it Beautiful lyrics will steer you into the mirror to stare at Now I'm gazing into the water A body is slowly fading so I wade into the water With each step and stroke my neck gets choked up I'm chest deep soaked, I'm about to throw up Suddenly I'm frozen in position Coating all my memories with friction - I can't remember There's something weird about December The winter clouds spout rain storms that twist together Like my vision the moment it all clicked Right before the collision with my eyes and his Chills overtook me I tried to shake the shock but this shook me I rubbed my face and prayed I was dreaming Thinking I was gonna wake up screaming I guess not, cause what happened next was a dead stop I closed my eyes and as they opened It was just my dead body in the ocean, and now I'm breathless Death wish I'm breathless Death wish Breathless Death wish Breathless