Miss You Dad

It's been a month since my father died It's been two since my son was born I try to trust who controls the sky But right now I'm feeling fuckin' torn Cause he looks just like you God took your pain away - how could I be spiteful I'm just happy you met your grandson I know you were looking forward to all the planned fun Grief is a mischievous thing Bouncing back and forth from hell to heaven hearing angels sing Then back to the depths hearing the demons scream Then I float to the middle not hearing anything And now I'm numb - I take a shot of vodka then pour one out 'fore I'm done We fuckin' miss you dad, we just wish you had more time left 'fore he took you back Rest In Peace Rest In Peace Rest In Peace Rest In Peace We fuckin' miss you dad, we just wish you had more time left 'fore he took you back Rest In Peace I haven't slept since you left I know I'll see you in my dreams - I'm just not ready for that I'm barely eating, I know it's not what you'd want But each second not thinking of you is moving on So many regrets, so many in depth - conversations I wish that we could've had I create a hurricane in my brain while my face paints a picture displaying that I'm okay But, wifey can tell that I'm different, f*ck I gotta be there for her and my son And my siblings, mom and grandparents God giveth God taketh away, that's apparent I'm not angry, I'm just in a daze again - even though, I know, one day I'll see you again We fuckin' miss you dad, we just wish you had more time left 'fore he took you back Rest In Peace We all miss you pops We love you Rest In Peace