That Spark

Don't know where to find that spark That I lost along the way for this art I question and pick my own thoughts apart While I simultaneously grieve my fathers departure My attempt to nurture the wound isn't as natural as the first heartbeat in a womb I don't know if I can Or if I even know how to If I shall die before I wake my last thought was about you I wanna get drunk I wanna be numb Until I stare into the eyes of my son It's at that moment I know I'm needed The moment I flow to Jesus to ask him to choke the demons So I can breathe easy this evening I try to guide myself to understand what it really entails to mold a strong man It takes patience, love and the strength to Say thank you to everything that made you Don't know where to find that spark Don't know how I got so far Don't know how I've lost my way Then found my faith on layaway Don't know where to find that spark Don't know how I got so far Don't know how I've lost my way Then found my faith on laya-layaway This is the moment - this is the moment Where I feel like I can control it I wanna fight - all my omens - all my omens Cuz they're always tryna take over my vibe So I fill my whole day by filling a whole page with feelings and old ways of dealing with My rage It's quite strange - how I can obsess over nothing for like days Even with my ducks in a row I find it hard to just take it slow Just to go for a stroll Cuz the thought of you is the price of the toll and dad - I don't really wanna run no more I need help with acceptance Cuz I can't tell if it's a lesson Or divine intervention - it seems That everything I learns in the middle of both of these So I sing Don't know where to find that spark Don't know how I got so far Don't know how I've lost my way Then found my faith on layaway Don't know where to find that spark Don't know how I got so far Don't know how I've lost my way Then found my faith on laya-layaway