Tragedy

A nameless devil, shameless Quick to blame who made this level Amazed at the way she was raised She would rage at the vessels in her brain She would wrestle in a cage, she was special Yeah, she didn't notice she was served with a notice She was nervous her focus wasn't servin' her motive She felt worthless and hopeless She serviced the blokes with her unearned devotion So she'd churn and they'd explode with Giddy but self pity's what led to this notion She gets emotionless while her body goes through the motions Rollercoastin', spiraling down but I'd admire her frown cuz it inspired my sound And that was selfish, I could've provided the tools to lend a helping hand But that'd be like guiding a fool She's the one in command, always defending her stance Claiming she would be sane if she had the same chance At childhood - childhood Served with smiles and sunshine like every child should I don't blame her for acting this way I don't blame her for acting this way, no way, yeah The way the moonlight sits deep in her eyes, I can tell she wants to cry She's not hard to decipher, the way her lighters tightly gripped The moment her ciggarette expires and exits from her lips I, tried to teach her meditation The seven chakra system and how the practice could lead to alleviation If you plant the seed, you could plan to be One less human being falling victim to this bleeding nation Where plan B defeats the purpose of plan A She turned to me like she was certain of what she'd plan to say She kept quiet - I deadened the silence She didn't raise an eyelid, I remained uninvited We both stood there until I understood There was nothing I could do but be more aware - it showed I cared That's when she opened up, scars on her wrist, hip Fresh slits tore me to bits and ripped me open - shit Growing up she was raped By her father who would get home late and he would tell her not to say A word, she was only eight - it continued to twelve This was the definition of her own personal hell Her father on the other hand, alcoholic Abusive toward her mother so they'd always live in shock It's a - closeted topic and nothing will ever stop it Except the gun that she found loaded - she picked it up and popped it One demon was dead, the other roaming free Hopefully closure will make its presence known in her family tree That leads her to me - that leads me to her - this exact moment is blurred In my memory banks It all happened so fast - she got in the car, she left in a dash I wondered why Was the weakness a gash in her brain saying if she gets too vulnerable She has to abandon all things that make her comfortable I really wish I could make her new But I know the pain stems from the roots of her fathers fruit I left shortly after, contemplating disaster Incestuous rape fornicating with evil laughter I'd kill him if I had the chance and she didn't I can't imagine the mental prison that she lives in - or lived in As I was driving down the street, I saw a police siren rendering her soul free Her car was totaled She was ejected from her seat I didn't cry because I knew that she was finally at peace I didn't even stop - I know that's what she would've wanted For me to move on with my life but I won't escape the haunted Visions of her, perfected in each center She was the type of fire who'd burn you 'til your last ember You know the type of love you realized that you felt - early on But didn't have the chance to tell cuz it felt wrong That's the love that she needed most I hope she returns as my guardian angel of hope I'll hold her close, I'll never let her go She's my broken soul - but she makes me whole