Torment

Verse One: Though I survived, still I feel remorseful They let me know they see me but won't link I keep it cordial Got out of life all I could stand, reality is torture I'm not as open as I used to be, or seen much fortune I guess I earned their distance from me, now no need to force it I mainly rhyme as a release before The Lord approaches I made my bed and fold my linens neat, without resources I found that open arms bring opportunists, grew up voiceless Very few were solid just as fewer heads supported I hold no grudges you just who you are and no one's perfect My morals and my peace of mind, will fill the void you forfeit Pitfalls no way to plan it, truly I was out my orbit Rarely acknowledged, was the nerd that you would hardly notice I hope the kids inspired by me see themselves as forces Expand or you can choose to settle if that's what your choice is My life's a bevy of "I almost had" and disappointments Before I go I hope my worries pass in God I worship Verse Two: Nobody owe me shit, I rep for me I guess my greatest flaw was knowing what was best for me I beg to differ homie maybe some just want it more Stuck on the past, that won't lead ahead to what's in store Those in your circle all won't meet you when you through that door I can't go back now so therefore I grant no back and forth I'm well within my power, sad that you ain't keep the course Allowed too many in and so my view of love is warped I owe myself to soar with no remorse They claim they love me, I was tolerated Almost would've gave in when I contemplated To die the only certainty inside this life we facing Day by day I fight the devil off, he's more impatient They took shots but they hardly grazed him Weigh the good and bad and remain grateful Praying on these better days 'fore my time come Fitting if I die alone, I been the only one