Faith

I'm sorry for all the pain i caused you I had to stay strong while you cried softly I know there's a long list of broken promises You were never at fault But I'm still ashamed all the innocence lost All because of the pride I was caught in My heart broke every time I made you feel pain But I did it because I had to feel something Twisted logic Maybe things would be different if played games with you Maybe if I didn't have such an attitude  Maybe if I could have just said I loved you Maybe we wouldn't have so many issues Resenting each other thanks to our parents All because you felt like I was the favorite My heart betrays my expression I've been needing to make this confession I stay numb after drinking sessions Don't worry my demons still wait for me I had to find faith But I failed to recognize it was there right in your face Damn I had to find faith But I failed to recognize it was there right in your face I remember tryna find peace While you you were tryna find relief I remember when you almost took your life I remember when you couldn't find the light I remember when I saw the cuts on your thighs I remember when you tried to quit ballet I remember you were like me just tryna find faith Tryna find a reason to keep going this way Everyday the question posed how we gonna lose again? Who's gonna go today? I tried to save face  But I realize I ain't got time to waste Any day could be my last  So let's keep it real I need to tell you how I feel Life's been moving to fast And I can't sit still One of my biggest fears  Is you'll be here Listening to this song And I'm long gone Only for you to find out I really cared I love you Isabella And I'm sorry for all the pain I'm sorry it's like I failed you again I was tryna find faith  But failed to recognize it was in your face I was tryna find faith But I failed to recognize it was there right in your face