Whole Again

God, if you're listening Please help me understand Why I feel so alone in this world No matter who or where I am? Guess I'll just bite my tongue I won't scream at the top of my lungs I'll pretend I'm not all that upset Say my prayers, pay my debts, make my plans Instead of looking for answers Maybe I'll rethink the questions If I'm surrounded by liars Than maybe I am among them But wait These people aren't my friends In fact, they've been pretty awful to me in the end I'll do my best to forgive and forget Find a different fence I can mend It's hard to tell the truth with all this blood in my mouth It's hard to play it cool when I am so filled with doubt, but I'm feeling like it's finally time to let it all out And try to feel whole again Look in the mirror there And face all of your fears You've been haunted by your own ghost And it's been that way for years So drop all the bullshit It's not how you planned it But you can't live life paralyzed Focus on yourself first No matter how it hurts No matter how often you have lied Cause in the end, there's no truth All that matters is what this has all meant to you You can't go blame anyone else For the methods and means that you choose It's hard to tell the truth with all this blood in my mouth It's hard to play it cool when I am so filled with doubt, but I'm feeling like it's finally time to let it all out And try to feel whole again I'm sick of feeling bruised, getting kicked when I'm down I'm sick of these excuses, all this messing around's got Me sifting through the static, trying to figure it out I'm tryna feel warm again You will get another chance You will get another chance To get your mind right You will get another chance To get your mind right Yes you will, yes you will, you will you will In the end, who've you got? All alone in an empty parking lot Might as well take it all on the chin Stand up tall, brush it off, try again It's hard to tell the truth with all this blood in my mouth It's hard to play it cool when I am so filled with doubt, but I'm feeling like it's finally time to let it all out And try to feel whole again It's hard to tell the truth with all this blood in my mouth It's hard to play it cool when I am so filled with doubt, but I'm feeling like it's finally time to let it all out And try to feel whole again I'm sick of feeling bruised, getting kicked when I'm down I'm sick of these excuses, all this messing around's got Me sifting through the static, trying to figure it out I'm tryna feel warm again