Hell (Extended)

The pain so sharp, I don't understand what is happening It's like every 5 seconds I'm getting kicked in my abdomen I try to get out but I can only have half thoughts Then time's up my mind is coming back and there's that kick again Just when I think I can't take anymore The cosmos callously proves me wrong I can only find relief when I'm sleeping But if I'm 24 hours asleep then why the hell am I breathing I tried a different approach, afternoon alcohol It doesn't work at all I don't know what to do anymore Insanity's in the rear view mirror miles behind Arms open wide I'm trying to die sons of anarchy style I'm afraid I'll never be the same again I keep riding forward I don't know where to turn It's insane cuz I know I'm on my way to hell Maybe I'll come out from the other side a man Something is grabbing my diaphragm Oh f*ck, I can't move a muscle man Soon as I am able so squeeze a breath in Fear shows up taking the oxygen If that mother fucker only had a physical form At list I could think about taking him on But right now he's inside my head and it feels like I can't do nothing at all Like everything in my life I gave it a 100% and I still failed Got up made more effort, more sacrifices and failed again Can't stand those dreadful thoughts this loop might never end The fear is paralyzing and that's real bad cuz I need to move forward to get out of this Hell I'm afraid I'll never be the same again I keep riding forward I don't know where to turn It's insane cuz I know I'm on my way to hell Maybe I'll come out from the other side a man